My heart hurts because it knows that I have to go back... I have to return to the place I hate and back to a family I can't stand... My heart hurts because realizing how much I love these two people is killing me. Technically, and logically, my choice is already made and I can't do anything about anything... but in my head, where I live, everything is different... I just want to scream! ... I want to confess everything to someone! But I can't! Because the two people I can confess everything to, are the two people my mind and my heart are fighting over!!!!!!!!!!!! I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M DOING!!!!!! OR WHAT I'M FEELING!!!!! IT'S DRIVING ME FUCKING INSANE!!!!!!!! ... gahhhhhhhhhhh........
My mind is telling me that logically and technically, David is my one and only choice... and true love. But my heart is telling me to follow it, and that maybe Josh has and always will be my one true friend... my true love...
... some one shoot me.
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