I went to see my counselor today with my two best friends. It actually wasn't too bad.
They met me right after first period and we went straight there. We walked in the room and I could not find my voice, so thank God for Lauren... She knows me well enough that she knew exactly what I was trying to say when I couldn't speak, and Matt... ♥ While I sat there crying he moved his chair next to me and wrapped his arm around me... I don't think he realizes how much I love that, and needed that.
I don't know what I would do without them. It's actually kinda strange, because they're the two people on this planet that you would never think to have the emotions that they do. They care, and they love, and appreciate me. They are the two greatest people in this whole world. Sure, they're always at each others necks, but I would be dead without them.
After I broke up with David all the walls I had built up to hold my depression in, were demolished. And I hated myself... So much. I have never hated myself that much, and I have never wanted to die so badly.
But I'm glad that I have the support system I do... Lauren and Matt are everything I've ever needed, and I probably would be dead in my bathtub right now if it weren't for their Love. If they didn't tell me that they loved me, or how much they cared or how worried they were... I don't even want to think about it.
It became obvious to me today that all I need is some good, wealthy love and friendship and I can make it. I don't need my family, or some guy... I mean sure it'd be nice... But I have two angels.♥
This is a video I made last night... Watch it if you want.♥
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